Schizophrenia Overview

Schizophrenia is a mental falling to pieces, that happens without warning, in any situation, at any time, even in the best of environments. The difference is only that: environment. The experience of losing one's self: one's mental, physical, or psychic coherence, specifically, does not necessarily have to be a negative experience(s). As it were, my schizophrenia is a chronically recurring multipolar experience of certain psychotic phenomenon.

In some cases, it is a backwards explosion, a flying-apart, or for others, an implosion from externally and internally imposed stressors on the underlying structure and basic fabric of the mind -- into nothingness, into total psychic chaos and unmooring. Or, alternately, schizophrenia can include an experience of coming to total stasis: either becoming completely mentally/physically/psychically stuck, and unable to make any decision, even to move.

Conversely, some psychotic "experiences" consist ultimately in achieving a state of peace in which the mind is quiet, and the spirit opens or accesses infinite planes of existence: calmness, peace, bliss, nirvana.

Like all conditions, the person manages or does not manage their illness, theirselves and their lives successfully, either keeping a balance, or falling, in the face of an intense experience of the unknown quotient, the risk of living each moment in the universe. Everything and anything might fall apart, or come together, or change entirely at any moment. It feels like cosmic surfing, a ride that never stops. In other words, psychoses are experiences of extreme living, that most often include hallucinations (in my case, constant, day-in-day out "auditory hallucinations", aka "voices" commenting on my daily journey), delusions, and misperceptions of reality, among other strange and inexplicable mental phenomenon.